PCOS Messages for April, 2003: Re: TTC and then NOT TTC and still feeling bad

Re: TTC and then NOT TTC and still feeling bad

From: Candy (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Wed, 30 Apr 2003 02:25:56 -0500 (CDT)

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I can totally sympathize. We've been TTC for a year and a half and so far, nada. I'm convinced I have PCOS because I have so many of the symptoms and have tested negative for thyroid and other problems. I have a new doctor now, a woman, and an appointment in 8 weeks. I'm terrified to hear the diagnosis, but also think I will be relieved.

Anyway, it kills me when I see teenagers with babies (how unfair!!!). I work in a profession that is predominantly women. It seems like every other week someone in my unit gives birth or announces a pregnancy. It just kills me. I'm happy for them, and yet at the same time, I become severely depressed. Among a group of friends at work its common knowledge that we've been TTC for a while now. One woman announced her pregnancy a few weeks ago and was whining that "this time it took four whole months." I felt like screaming. Not only is it difficult to be deprived of a baby, but it also makes me feel like I'm less of a woman. Many a night after work I crawl into bed sobbing. My husband is wonderful and positive, so that helps, but its still very difficult. Compounding matters is that he has a low sperm count. I ovulated last month (!) and we had sex that day, but my period showed up so I'm sure I'm not pregnant. The disappointment was bitter. I'm 30 and my clock is ticking very loudly!

At Tue, 29 Apr 2003, Sonnet wrote: >
>Thanks so much you guys for all the replies. I am STILL feeling angry
>about people who can just get pg too easily or who have kids they don't
>want, but at least I'm not feeling so terrible about feeling terrible. I
>try to keep reminding myself, every time I see a woman with a newborn
>and feel like crying, maybe it took HER years to have that baby, what do
>I know!! And that helps!!
>
>I just had the idea that once I was actually pregnant and not actively
>TTC, I would somehow be a part of the big "women with children" club and
>would stop feeling jealous or like an outsider. Ha ha, surprise, it's
>really still the big "PCOS" club and the "PCOS Post-infertility" club
>instead. But that's OK with me...
>
>Anyway thanks for all the thoughts and nice kind words and everything
>else. You guys make me feel a lot better!!
>
>Sonn
>
>--
>email always welcome: sonnet_fitz@hotmail.com
>

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