Re: Venting
From: tera (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Fri, 28 Mar 2003 10:09:34 -0600 (CST)
Hon,
you sound as though you feel very alone right now. Well, you're really
not. I had been told by doctors for years that I was "okay" or that my
problems were "normal", "hereditary - and normal" or nothing really to
worry about at all or just cosmetic. Well, the symptoms kept pouring on
with time - PCOS is progressive. It was a matter of going to different
doctors that finally "helped". At least I was able to receive a
diagnosis but it took lots of research on my part to convince her to
finally let me try Metformin, etc. and now she is thrilled for me that
I am getting a monthly period. It can be a struggle. For me it's
yearly ultrasounds, blood work, doctors not getting back to me with
results when they say they're going to, etc. So, you are not alone. It
can be a struggle. It's hard for me to be patient with my doctors but I
have to realize that they are just people who do not know everything
about every condition and because of that I need to do my homework and
share my findings with my doc - in a respectful way (that's how I
finally got help). Hang in there - I'm prone to worrying too.....but
remember that no one ever added one day to their life by worrying. I
took all that nervous energy and put it into research - and now I'm
getting help! Take care of yourself and God bless, Tera :)
At Fri, 28 Mar 2003, GoldenEagle wrote:
>
>Greetings,
>
>The last few weeks have been pretty rough.... I really hate that waiting game that we are all
>forced to play with the doctors at some point. It seems like everything is done in little spurts
>and it just compounds the whole issue and adds to the stress. Sometimes I wish they could
>just do all the testing in one day and get it over with. At least then any surprises that are
>discovered can be dropped in your lap to deal with all at once... it gets to the point where
>I don't even want to go back to the doctor because just about the time I start feeling better,
>something else is added to the mix. For every one thing I get out of the way, it seems they
>add 2 more. I try not to complain too much because I do realize that part of this is my fault
>for waiting so many years to find out what is going on with me... on the other hand, if my
>doctors that I did see earlier had bothered to do any testing and had shown concern, maybe
>I wouldn't have gotten to this point now. It really sucks when people have to start self-diagnosing
>just to go in to the doctor with enough knowledge to force them into running tests... it's like
>as long as they think you're pretty stupid about things, you won't know what they should or
>should not be doing so it doesn't matter. As soon as you show that you do have some basic
>knowledge, they jump real fast to help because they don't want to be outdone.... that's how it
>feels anyway.
>
>As of now, it isn't very likely that there is anything really seriously wrong with me.... but I still
>find myself worrying to the point where I can't sleep, or get very little sleep, my mind just keeps
>running on and on and I can't shut it off when I need to... I literally feel like I'm having these panic
>or anxiety attacks sometimes. Other times I'll be just fine and then it's as tho someone flips a
>switch and I immediately fall into this deep dark depression where all I can do is cry and can't
>stop... I'm getting so tired emotionally and physically from the strain of worrying, of having my
>hormones all out of whack, not sleeping well, and never knowing what's going to fall in my lap next.
>I can't understand how I can be perfectly fine one minute and fall into depression in the next....
>do hormones really fluctuate that suddenly? Or is there something else going on? Even more
>questions to ask my doctor on Monday.....
>
>I know that most of you have probably been in this emotional space yourselves... at some point.
>I guess now I just need some encouraging words from someone that I'm ok, that everything
>will work itself out, that I'm not going nuts and this is all normal for PCOS... something - anything
>that will help ease my mind and heart...
>
>take care all, and thanks for being here,
>
>Dawn
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Tera
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