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Re: AHHHH! to BCP or not to BCP, to Spiro or not to Spiro, to Gluc or not to Gluc, to struggle or to give up- these are my questions
From: Mel (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Wed, 22 May 2002 08:37:43 -0500 (CDT)
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Hi Valerie
It does get better, honestly. I have found sopeaking to a councillor
really helpfull and taking gaviscon has really helped the erm, gastric
side effects of met. Try i know it is hard, to acccept you. Saying
that i have moments of 'i am such a big fat cow and i dont know why my
dh loves me or want to lurve me' but i know that he loves me not thin me
or pcos me, just me. i have fouind that yoga hes helped me feel far
less 'mad' and it really helps to tone you up.
TTC is not the only baby route, although i know plenty of women who
conceve with pcos on met, we are choosig to adopt but that is our
choice. Please please dont give up on yourself, you are a beautiful and
unique person with insight and hopr to offer the world.
Please do not hesitate to mail me direct. Keep well and takje great care
--
Mel
At Wed, 22 May 2002, Valerie wrote:
>
>AHHHHHHHHH! I can't take it anymore!!!! 12 years post diagnosis and I am
>still going nowhere fast and I am angry and I am crying and I am
>depressed and I am beyond explainable! Someone help me please! I AM SO
>FED UP I COULD SCREAM... I HAVE NO ONE WHO REALLY UNDERSTANDS WHAT IS
>HAPPENING TO ME... I AM SO DAMN TIRED OF ALL OF THIS... I WISH I COULD
>TRADE MY BODY IN UNDER THE LEMON LAW LIKE A CAR THAT GOES BAD
>PREMATURELY DUE TO MANUFACTURERS ERROR!!!!!
>
>OK, I was diagnosed 12 yrs ago and had no real "treatment" until mid
>March. Endo Rx'd Gluc, 1000mg per day... I struggled to get there...
>not there yet... I was at 375 with breakfast and 500 with dinner...
>lately my health seems to be in the toilet (more so than just the Gluc
>side effects) I started getting kidney pains 3 weeks ago and they gave
>me antibiotics for a massive kidney infection... I still test positive
>for infection, but at least the kidney pain is down to a dull roar that
>I can suffer through. I spotted for the first time in ages at about the
>same time- got excited, thought it was a period- NOPE! Braved the OB-GYN
>for the first time in a long time and he tried to talk me into BCP- I
>did BCP's for 7 yrs and stopped 3 yrs ago because they are awful... he
>Rx'd Provera because I refused to even consider BCP's (been so sick,
>haven't been brave enough to start the Provera yet) Went to the Endo for
>a follow-up, with 875 Gluc a day I have had little change in my
>insulin/glucose, my testosterone dropped a bit while my free
>testosterone almost doubled!!! (Which accounts for the new bald spot the
>size of half a dime and the fact that my lasered face now bears a dozen
>or so black hairs- the laser tech did tell me to keep my testosterone
>under control if I wanted permanent results... easier said than done
>ay!) My endo says she feels it is in my best interest to begin taking
>Yasmin BCP for a while to get my androgens back in line... if not
>Yasmin, then Spiro with condoms as my birth control method. Furthermore,
>she said my side effects of Gluc were really abnormally bad and that it
>is my decision how long I want to battle with Gluc, she said for as much
>as I am suffering I can respectably give up at any time and since I
>would be using some method of birth control then I could take something
>other than Gluc though I will need to stop when I get the nerve up to
>TTC again. I AM SO ANGRY WITH MY BODY RIGHT NOW! My husband and I have
>been TTC for 3 yrs and now I am not even serious about it anymore... my
>new approach is that I will get brave one day and do the whole 9 yards
>with the fertility drugs, but frankly I feel I can't now... my body is
>in awful shape... I get excrutiating daily headaches, I have had to
>drop my Gluc down to fluxuating between 375 and 750 per day because my
>stomach is in awful shape, my anus can bear little more of this, I am
>going bald fast, I have no real great friends around and DH is
>supportive but its just not enough to bear the pressure that is welling
>up inside me... a couple of months ago newborn babies made me sick with
>envy- now I get sick with envy if someone isn't pill popping all the day
>away... is it possible to be addicted to Immodium Advanced (the
>anti-gas kind?) because its the only thing that stops the cramping... I
>am petrified to give up the Gluc completely but I am petrified to stay
>on it... I have no choice but to lower my androgen level with something
>and the question is WHAT??? What won't make my system more screwy... I
>am so fatigued that I put in my work week scarcely able to concentrate
>even 75% of the time, I come home and veg out every evening and sleep my
>weekends away. I don't feel I have the brains for these decisions
>anymore! Yasmin is a BCP- does it truly have an anti-androgen component
>or am I just pumping a stupid BCP with all kinds of chemicals into my
>personal chemical disaster of a body to further screw me???
>
>Yasmin or Spiro...or Saw Palmetto or???
>
>Gluc or Gluc+Actos or Gluc+something or Actos or???
>
>I am sorry for the length of this, but I am at my wits end and I swear I
>am nearing nervous breakdown... I can't help but wonder WHY IS THIS ALL
>HAPPENING TO ME?!?!?!?!?! I am 22!!! I swear my quality of life is
>running in the negative numbers right now... and I almost wonder is I
>am imaging that it seems I felt alot better before I did any of this!!!
>I have like NO APPETITE until 4pm and cannot even force it or I puke...
>I puke pure bile like its a sport lately... I am crying and I cannot
>take anymore!!!
>
>--
>ValerieC
>
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