Re: irrational hatred of people (rant)
From: Tracie (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Wed, 25 Apr 2001 01:19:13 -0500 (CDT)
I completely understand what you are feeling. My SISTER is pregnant
with her FOURTH child as we speak. She got the good genes, and can get
pregnant just by looking at a guy. Talk about depressing!! The
frustrating part is that she is so much larger than me...I just don't
understand it.
I do have hatred towards some "normal" women. It's those types of women
who have a slew of kids and she doesn't care or love any of them. I see
it all the time, the mom could care less what her kids are doing, they
are filthy....she abuses them etc. That type of woman doesn't realize
what she has, or how lucky she is. It terrifies me knowing that there
is a good chance that I will die an old lady with no one to care for me
later in life. And that I will spend the later years of my life alone.
And here this woman is, not giving a damn about her own children. It
really really really makes me angry.
At Tue, 24 Apr 2001, jodi wrote:
>
>i wish i was a nice person but PCOS has made me nasty and bitter in some
>pretty bizarre irrational ways... PUH-LEASE tell me someone can
>sympathize with me here, or has had similar crazy feelings!!!!
>
>i was walking towards the bathroom today at school ... the bathroom was
>sort of in the middle of the hallway. so i approach from one direction,
>and a woman approaches from the other direction... a HUGELY pregnant
>woman, i might add...
>
>seeing pregnant women makes me want to cry. this is irrational, i know.
>i am a student, unmarried, don't even have a direction in life... i am
>not trying to get pregnant. but seeing pregnant women makes me soooooo
>unhappy. i know i could say to myself "well, she might have had trouble
>getting pregnant, too" and i know someone is going to point that out to
>me... but face it. chances are, she didn't. chances are, she is a
>normal, healthy, regularly menstruating woman... well, at least she was
>until 7 months ago... :P
>
>so i sit there in my little stall thinking bitter thoughts about the
>pregnant woman two stalls over... then i come out. as i come out of
>the stall, another girl comes into the bathroom. as i am at the sink
>washing my hands, she comes to buy a tampon at the machine right next to
>me.
>
>UGH!!!!!!!!!! she needs tampons! it's not fair!!!!!
>
>and yes, i KNOW it's possible that she's on the pill and maybe that
>means even HER periods aren't "real" or whatever but... chances are,
>even if she's on the pill, she's on it for birth control only, not PCOS
>control...
>
>i know this is crazy. it's the bitterest, nastiest way a person can
>feel... hating other people just because they have normal bodily
>functions...
>i'm not looking for anyone to tell me it's ok to feel this way, or that
>it's not ok to feel this way... i'm just looking to see if anyone else
>has crazy feelings like this... i hate to think i'm the bitterest girl
>in the world here,. but PCOS sure is making it hard not to be.
>
>anyone else ever feel this way?
>
>- jodi
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