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Re: That's it. I've finally flipped out.
From: katie (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Wed, 28 Feb 2001 14:58:39 -0600 (CST)
At Sun, 25 Feb 2001, mollie wrote:
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>At Sun, 25 Feb 2001, katie wrote:
>>katie i feel like that alot of the time read my message.
>i don,t know whether its the illness or not i,ll have to wait for an
>answer.
>trouble is tiridness and stress and sleeping alot can be the sign of
>depression so whether you have depression or the pcos is making you feel
>like this i don,t know.
Yeah, had depression before.
>i think you should go to have a chat with your doctor though and explian
>how you feel. i am on prozac at the moment cause i feel like i can,t
>cope most of the time.
Pretty rotten isn't it??
your not going mad there is prbably a reason for
>how your feeling.
>hope you sort this problem out.
>mollie
>i,m in the uk also.
Where in the uk are you?
>>I'm at the end of my tether. I completely flipped on Friday at work.
>>I'd let a customer down, and was trying to sort it out, but it was too
>>late. My desk is right inbetween my two colleagues (who were laughing
>>about how many times I was swearing that day) and I just went "I can't
>>cope with this today, I really can't cope" - and just broke down, there
>>and then, on my desk.
>>
>>Can I tell you build up to all this?
>>
>>Thursday was really busy and I ended up taking work home with me. I did
>>work from 5.30pm - 7.00, when I went out on my driving lesson (which
>>went really badly because I was so higly strung I thinkg - and it was
>>the last lesson before my test). I nearly cried in the car, but managed
>>to save it until I got home. Then, once I'd calmed down, I did some
>>more work until 10.30pm. I went to bed at 11pm, and fell asleep pretty
>>much straight away.
>>
>>I woke up on Friday, reaLly tired. Friday was really busy as well,
>>there's underlying problems between the 3 of us that work in the office,
>>but on Friday it wasn't as bad as it usually is. But when I completely
>>flipped, I could see my boss eyeing me with contempt.
>>
>>I went home, had my tea then went to my orchestra rehearsal. By this
>>time I was completely exhausted. The conductor really annoyed me
>>because he keeps getting my name wrong, and he completely undermines me
>>when I do my best. I'm a darn good player compared to some other people
>>and he still does that to me.
>>
>>When I got home, I went upstairs and had a good cry. But then ended up
>>feeling miserable for the rest of the night.
>>
>>I went to bed at 11pm and didn't wake up until 3pm the next afternoon!
>>Which is a whole 16 hours sleep. And today I slept 12 hours.
>>
>>This is what's worrying me, you see. I'm *so* tired ALLL the time.
>>*Every* *Single* *Day* I have the same conversation with people at
>>work:- "You look tired" "Yes, I am" "Did you sleep last night"
>>"Yes""Oh.. then why are you tired" "Well, I *really* think it has
>>something to do with this illness that I can't get anybody to take
>>seriously". "Oh".\
>>
>>Can you imagine how wearing that gets, day in day out?
>>
>>As well as being tired, I find that I'm out of breath easily and my
>>heart starts racing for no apparent reason. I feel so very ill, but I
>>don't know what's wrong. I'm 21 years old, I should be out partying
>>with my mates, but instead I've driven them all away with my mood
>>swings, depression and inability to stay out late.
>>
>>Thanks for listening, I really just wanted to reach out to some people
>>who would understand.
>>
>>--
>>katie x
>>
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