Re: Check in type whingy note - Beware!
From: Patti (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Sat, 30 Dec 2000 20:38:23 -0600 (CST)
I hope I'm not cutting in on a "private" posting :). My name is Patti
and I could read Sonnet's letter and think I wrote it myself! That is
the beauty of this website - I finally realize that I'm not alone. I'm
not the only one that has family members who keep telling me to "just
relax and you'll get pregnant." I just want to scream, "IT'S NOT A
MATTER OF RELAXING! I HAVE NO CONTROL OVER MY REPRODUCTIVE SYSTEM!!!"
I also struggle day to day thinking each morning when I wake up that
today I will control what I eat and avoid sweets. Then I go to bed each
night and think since I failed again, I will just start again tomorrow.
It never ends. I agree with what Bonnie said that our bodies over-ride
our brain's messages. I sometimes feel like a drug addict with needing
sugar or carbs all day long. I know I am pushing towards Type II.
Then to make matters worse (please indulge me for another whiney moment)
I have a sister that is 18 months older than me, atleast 60lbs. lighter,
has a FULL head of hair AND got pregnant without even thinking about it.
I know I shouldn't compare myself to her but how can I not?
What I keep telling myself that tomorrow is a new day, my husband loves
me despite PCOS symptoms, I have great friends and strong family ties,
etc.. Hopefully one day I will also have someone calling me Mommy. God
bless you both and feel free to e-mail me if you ever want to vent!
At Sat, 30 Dec 2000, Koolaide wrote:
>
>Hey Sonnet.... ohhhhh, I just hate that when people don't understand.
>You are such a saint and a honest godsend to this board, how dare
>someone rain on your Christmas. My heart really goes out to you. You
>are certainly a special lady and I would love to see you with children,
>it will come. DOn't get down on yourself over things you cannot
>control. It is NOT your fault that you have pcos and all the shittier
>than shitty symptoms that go with it. You cannot control the sugar
>cravings. Do you know that your body cannot live without sugar? It is
>not mind over matter here, your body knows what it wants and I honestly
>think overrides the brain and the sugar goes in. Doesn't matter the
>form, pasta to the chocolate orange I'm eating right now. THIS IS NOT
>YOUR FAULT, YOU CANNOT HELP IT.
>I'm glad you are lucky with the friends you have and the wonderful
>supportive hubby. Don't forget, he's a lucky guy too! I hope you are
>feeling better, you have made me feel better so many times without ever
>knowing it. For totally selfish reasons, I hope you get a computer
>sometime because I miss your posts and answers.
>Wishing you a very happy New Year, and I will say an extra prayer for
>you tonight before I go to sleep that you too will hear little voices
>calling you mommy.
> Bonnie
>
>At Sat, 30 Dec 2000, Sonnet wrote:
>>
>>I'm so so sorry I haven't been around a lot lately. It's hard as we now
>>have no computer (can't afford one just yet!) so I'm limited to coming
>>online when I can make it down to the library. And I don't know if it
>>is the holidays or what, but man I am just so down about all this PCOS
>>stuff, and really - that's not like me! I find it hard to even post here
>>recently, and that's DEFINITELY not like me, as you all should know by
>>now! I'm discouraged by my symptoms seeing to get worse, by my own
>>failure to control my sugar intake. I just can't seem to stop it, not
>>for more than a week or so at a go. It's so depressing. And of course
>>there's the whole deal of another Christmas with just me and Pete, no
>>baby yet. My family got so bad about it this year that by Christmas Eve
>>we had told them to get stuffed and spent the day by ourselves. I'm
>>lucky to have him around, but geez I sure wish I had some other support
>>sometimes. I have a lot of friends who are really great, and I know
>>they care, but it's just that they've never been through anything like
>>this, I can tell I always lose them, it's not something you can
>>understand if you haven't been there. So I'm lonely and discouraged and
>>whiny. Anyone have an antidote for this???
>>
>>And Stacey - thanks for the lovely note you posted a bit ago, that
>>lifted me quite a bit :) You rock, thankyou for making me feel like I
>>belong somewhere!
>>
>>I love you guys, I really do.... so sorry that I am just sitting it out
>>for a bit trying to cope.
>>
>>Sonn
>>
>>--
>>Email always welcome to: sonnet_fitz@hotmail.com
>>
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-Patti
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