Re: if i'm nice to the baby...
From: Sonnet (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Thu, 30 Nov 2000 10:08:31 -0600 (CST)
Jodi - I just want you to know that I was really touched by your post. I
feel like that a lot, like I am desperate enough to start bargaining
with God... I think you are an amazingly strong woman to come through
all of this with such a positive attitude. Thank you for adding to the
board!
At Wed, 29 Nov 2000, jodi wrote:
>
>this is kind of another funny/silly thing from me...
>
>my brother's girlfriend is having a baby. i found out about this back
>in august, which is also when i found out i have PCOS... it was kind of
>a sick ol' slap in the face. i find out i've got a disease that might
>make me infertile... at the same time i find out my (single) brother is
>expecting an unplanned baby. ain't life fun????
>
>so due to my own personal issues, i've felt less than enthused about the
>event. i just could not get excited over a forthcoming baby when i knew
>i might never get to experience that joy myself. i couldn't even bring
>myself to go to the baby shower a few weeks ago. i know a lot of you
>can relate so please don't look down too much on my selfishness :(
>
>so. on thanksgiving i meet the girlfriend for the first time... and
>surprise! i like her. she's quiet but seems very sweet. i'm a bit of a
>shy little twerp myself so we didn't talk much but i think i like her.
>anyone who can put up with my brother deserves credit for that much at
>least!!! :)
>
>so i was knitting something that day - nothing in particular, i love to
>knit, sometimes i just start knitting to keep my hands busy - and my
>brother said, why don't you make a blanket for the baby? and i was like
>ok... so i asked his gf her favorite color and she said purple. and i
>said cool, cuz i love purple. and i have been knitting a blanket now
>since saturday and it's about half down. it's two strands of yarn
>together through out so it;ll be very warm which is good cuz it's gonna
>be a december or january baby. i knid of thought the color might be bad
>- i went with purple cuz SHE likes purple, and i picked a dark purple
>cuz pastel baby colors make me ill - but my mother says it's good, it
>won't show dirt.
>
>so lately i've been thinking, hmmmm... i should look on this baby as a
>chance to improve my knitting. i have a bad habit of starting projects
>which i never finish due to either losing interest cuz they take too
>long (i can't tell you how many backs of sweaters i've made), or because
>i stopped for a while and forgot where i was , or because i dropped a
>stich and i have a bad habit of junking a project if it won't be
>perfect.
>
>well, baby things would be nice and small so i could finish before
>losing interest. i think it'll be great practice for me.
>
>the blanket so far is perfect, not a single dropped stich or mistake
>that i can see. :)
>
>but i have to admit, in the back of my head, i think there's the thought
>that if i'm really nice to this baby god will be nice to me and make my
>PCOS not make me hopelessly infertile.
>
>weather that is true or not... this baby's gonna have a lot of
>handknitted items. i just may knit myself into a coma this winter. :)
>
>- jodi
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