Re: Depressed about pregnancy
From: Sonnet (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Tue, 7 Nov 2000 15:25:26 -0600 (CST)
LInda I thought you expressed yourself very well and with a lot of
grace. Hang in there! Hopefully you will feel better soon and be able
to get yourself some really good treatement. Here's healthy wishes to
you!
--
Sonnet
At Tue, 7 Nov 2000, Linda wrote:
>
>I have had PCOS since I was 16. And have suffered with it just like all
>of you. The frustration I feel in getting pregnant while trying to fix
>my PCOS is just as real as your frustration for not being able to get
>pregnant. At 39, I have some significant health problems brought on by
>the PCOS and therefore, was avoiding pregnancy so I wouldn't put my
>health in jeopardy. I don't even know if this pregnancy will carry to
>term, or if I can physically handle it. Add to that, the stress of my
>daughter's asthma crap (instrumental I might add in breaking down my
>health --- you inhale steriods, albuterol and anti-inflammatory on a
>daily basis, then get two hours sleep/night while your kid struggles to
>breathe and see how you feel). I was going to get a heart scan due to
>an irregular heartbeat and possible blockages and guess what, I can't
>now. I had to fight to get a pap smear before 12 weeks, despite the
>fact I'm bleeding from the cervix and have had two bad paps in the past.
>Let's also not forget since I hadn't had a period since May, I run a
>higher risk of endometrial cancer. So perhaps I can have this baby,
>then find out I have cancer or heart disease????? Everyone in the
>medical community seems hell-bent on protecting the health of this child
>that they forget the mother!! HELLO!!! If I can't carry this pregnancy
>to term, then there IS no child -- my health comes FIRST, especially
>since I have two kids at home who would like to have a mother raise them
>along with their father. So THIS is where my frustration lies.
>
>It is hard to be excited when one is nauseous, exhausted, having
>irregular heartbeats, and on top of that, has had a bad respiratory
>infection (that I'm not allowed to treat--might hurt the baby).
>
>Remember, PCOS affects us all in different ways. I have not suffered
>infertility in the classic sense, but the crappy hormonal flow within my
>body leaves me always hanging in mid-air about what will happen next.
>Not having control, and not being able to plan STINKS!!! My husband is
>planning a vasectomy and if this child is a section, I will get my tubes
>tied as well. That should fix it, though I've heard people still get
>pregnant besides.
>
>Sorry to be so nasty, but I am tired, sick, and still somewhat
>frustrated.
>
>At Mon, 6 Nov 2000, Smed wrote:
>>
>>Linda,
>>
>>I am not sure if you know what board you posted this on. Do you have
>>PCOS? If not you need to move to another board. I am usually the happy
>>go lucky one, but I have to say that you may not get much sympathy here,
>>sorry but there are so many women here who have suffered many many long
>>years to become pregnant to no avail.
>>
>>I would have to say congratulations on this blessing from God.
>>
>>I understand your shock at becoming pregnant again, but remember that
>>each child is a blessing sent to you straight from heaven and that God
>>is handing you a bundle to love and care for. There is not much more
>>many of us here could ask for than that. I would have to say I would be
>>happy to give up my dreams of being thin again to just experience the
>>joy of pregnancy and birth. I do not mean to rant at you, but I have to
>>say that it just seems a little tiny bit inconsiderate to post this type
>>of message on this board after all the pain and suffering you must see
>>on here. I just never remember seeing you post before. I do not know
>>maybe I am daft or something, I have been accused of that before. Do
>>not take this personal, well maybe you should I don't know. Sorry
>>everyone, but this post just got Smed's panties in a wad. Sometimes
>>things just bother me and they shouldn't I suppose. I can just imagine
>>the hurt in so many women's hearts when they read that message.
>>
>>P.S. kallie you handled this a lot better than I did, way to go.
>>
>>--
>>Smed
>>
>>At Mon, 6 Nov 2000, Linda wrote:
>>>
>>>Here I am, 39 years old and pregnant again! I hate to whine about what
>>>others are possibly trying to achieve but it seems every darn time I use
>>>hormonal treatment (this time natural progesterone) I get pregnant
>>>DESPITE the fact we used birth control!
>>>
>>>I hadn't even cycled since May of this year and still managed to get
>>>pregnant in September. I was trying to bring on a cycle using the
>>>natural progesterone. The doctor thinks what happened is I popped a big
>>>cyst off my ovary in the beginning of Sept due to the progesterone's
>>>influence, and that created a weak spot on my ovary for an egg to pop
>>>through 2 weeks later. The cyst they detected in the ultrasound to date
>>>the prenancy is HUGE.
>>>
>>>At any rate, I was not expecting a third child and am having trouble
>>>getting used to the fact. My second child had pretty bad asthma and the
>>>stress nearly destroyed my marriage. We feel like we are finally at a
>>>point where we were getting back freedoms we had totally lost and BANG,
>>>here we go again.
>>>
>>>Sigh.
>>>
>>>--
>>>Linda
>>>
>--
>Linda
>
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