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Re: Might not be pregnant after all - please pray
From: Alicia (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Tue, 12 Sep 2000 08:41:18 -0500 (CDT)
Hi Kallie,
I am so sorry for what you are going through. You have been such an
inspiration to many of us.. My heart goes out to you. I will keep you
and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Hang in there.
At Mon, 11 Sep 2000, Kallie wrote:
>
>This is long I'm sorry, you don't have to read it but I had to get it
>out.
>
>I have had the most devestating day. Today was my 1st ultrasound to
>determine size. Two weeks ago at the Dr. office they said I was just 5
>weeks but when the Dr. did the internal he said I may be further along
>than that. That's why he wanted the ultrasound. But he told me to wait
>2 weeks until I was 7 weeks so we would definately be able to see the
>baby if I was only 7 weeks and if I was indeed further along we'd know
>that too.
>
>So today around noon I get really excited because I realize that in just
>afew hours I was going to SEE my baby. I was overcome with the reality
>of my pregnancy and could hardly wait.
>
>I met my husband at the imaging center and I went back alone for the
>first part of the ultrasound. The technician took pictures of my
>abdomon but I thought it was weird that she didn't offer to show me the
>baby's heartbeat. When I was pregnant 3 years ago I had an ultrasound
>at 6 weeks, they took pictures of the heartbeat and everything. The
>tech said to go to the bathroom, she'd get my husband for the 2nd part.
>She explained that we'd do the internal ultrasound and then the
>radiologist would be in to explain everything. ..... Explain
>everything? I kept saying that over and over. I tried to chalk that up
>to just being the way she explained the procedures.
>
>When I came back from the bathroom the ultrasound machine was moved out
>of my view towar the end of the table. As I sat there waiting I tried
>to rationalize why it had been moved so far. Maybe to let my husband
>come around - because there was something wrong and she didn't want to
>alarm me. Only just now as I am typing this have I thought of what is
>probably the true reason. She had to stand near the end of the table to
>do the internal.
>
>Finally the tech and my husband come back. She is taking pictures and
>typing away. She still doesn't say, "see, here is the heartbeat" like I
>had expected. (( I know what you must be thinking, why didn't I ask to
>see it - ask if everything was alright. I was afraid to ask. )) She
>finished and said the radiologist would review the pics and be in.
>
>As soon as she left I told Steven that something wasn't right. She
>didn't show us the heartbeat and that wasn't right. We waited a long
>time and when the radiologist came in he said that it appears I am not
>far enough along to see much of anything yet, he'd like me to come back
>in two weeks for a follow-up. He's already called my Doc to let him
>know.
>
>He was going to leave it at that but it sounded like bullshit to me, I
>had 1 good pregnancy - Thank god my little Matt is sleeping down the
>hall.
>
>I asked him how far along he thought I was, he said about 5 weeks.
>Already off by 2 weeks (And the Dr. had been worried I was further that
>that??) When I asked him what it showed he said they could see the
>gestational sack but they couldn't see anything in it, yet. I asked him
>what else could cause that and he said misscaraige. hen he said but you
>aren't bleeding or spotting right? I said no, he said Okay then. And at
>that moment I was too crushed to speak so I couldn't say anything and he
>backed out of the doorway where he'd been standing.
>
>Thank god my husband was there because I lost it. Other than actually
>bleeding it seems that I may have somehow miscarried? You are supposed
>to see the fetal heartbeat via ulta sound at 3-6 weeks.
>
>I have to wait 2 weeks??? To know if my little baby is alive or has
>passed on??? This doesnt seem to make sense. I feel like I am so torn
>apart. How am I going to get through 2 weeks of not knowing when I am
>absoultly terrified to go back in there and have them say...I'm sorry...
>And then be suffled across the street for a D&C.
>
>I know I can't think like that but I haven't figured out how to remain
>positive yet. I am going to do alot of praying tonight for my baby and
>for strength. I'm going to call my Dr tomorrow too to see if he can
>help me understand.
>
>I soo this was really long and personal but I thought someone mught
>understand here.
>
>--
>Kallie
>
--
Alicia
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