Re: Men, me, and whether i can find it in myself to love who I am!
From: tarina (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Wed, 30 Aug 2000 08:48:34 -0500 (CDT)
Lee,
I understand completely!!!!! I read your post and I had to respond
immedatley. (I usually read everyone elses replys first to see if I was
just going to say the same things... but) You and I have similar
histories and are both dealing with PCOS. Your not alone here.
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ok- well i just wrote a book and erased it cause i don't think the board
can support that much type :) so......
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I think it may be better if we write each other personally, if you don't
mind. I'd love to talk to you. We may be able to help each other. home
e-mail is bellsong@clarityconnect.com. and even if you don't write me
back, i'll still be looking for you on the board. *hugs*
Take care of yourself and know that you DO deserve it.
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tarina
At Tue, 29 Aug 2000, Lee wrote:
>
>Hi ho everyone. i am a little tearful today as I reflect how much i
>realize I have not loved myself inside. I take it out on my outer
>apearance but I know it is how I feel about myself in general that is
>the problem. When I was highschool, I was pretty slender, but I am
>5'10" and big boned, so most of the guys were running after the litle
>petite things (which no matter how skinny I could get I could never be).
>I didn't like myself then and thought bad of myself so I know it isnt
>the weight etc... yes the hair problem bums me out sometimes but it is
>just hair, and doesnt replace the price of my humanity. Saying that and
>convincing myself of that are 2 different things though. I just want to
>shine through no matter how i look, and I know that i need to do this
>because I dont see how I can ever expect to have a loving realtionship
>with a man until i do. i love hearing all your LOVE stories and the
>support you get from men, but i think the ladies that do have this, even
>though may be bummed from time to time have pretty good self esteems.
>How do you do it? How do you let yourselves be comfotable around men? I
>also have some other issues which i am not unable to admit hinder me
>from trusting men (I was sexually abused when younger..i hope that
>doesnt freak any of you out) so this is a real challenge for me. I ask
>for any advice or kind words of wisdom here...thank you as always. I am
>so glad I have you all to come to for this stuff...:) Love and peace!
>
>--
>Lee
>
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