Re: *I've* started carrying a PURSE????
From: Tania (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Mon, 25 Jun 2001 02:49:29 -0000
sharing will now commense
AMEN!!! i still wear guy's clothes, they are the only ones that will fit me
right, but my friends think i'm the girliest girl they know!! i used to be a
mechanic for gods sakes. my mom thought i was gay for the longest time
because i DESPISED the actions of the other girls around me, i thought it
was a weakness to be femenine, what is that about? i still get a kick out of
the girls at school "oh my god, did you see her hair?" or " i NEED a
boyfriend," - i'm in cosmetology school by the way.. i've never met another
woman with pcos, in person at least , and i truly feel alone most of the
time...my weight problems, acne, depression, but most of my friends
understand......i try to be graceful and feminine, but it's an effort,
apparently i'm putting on a good show.
well, gonna bail
tania
>From: anonymous@obgyn.net (jodi)
>Reply-To: anonymous@obgyn.net
>To: Multiple recipients of list PCOS <anonymous@obgyn.net>
>Subject: *I've* started carrying a PURSE????
>Date: Sun, 24 Jun 2001 15:02:04 -0500
>
>Now HERE'S a symptom I haven't read of metformin helping with... heh.
>
>Anyone else feel that they have always been tomboyish... PRIDED
>themselves on their tomboyishness even? I sure have... Way, way back in
>fifth grade, I remember playing "boys chase girls" at recess (a very
>original, creatively named game where the boys chased the girls... :-P)
>and I was never on the girls' team. Nope... was never good friends
>with the girls, always better friends with the boys. I was always on
>the boys' team... as their "spy..." which means I pretended to be on
>the girls' team, but rather than chase the boys, I chased the girls and
>put them in jail for the boys. (You'd think the girls would have caught
>on eventually... but they never did...)
>
>ANYWAY... I have always hated carrying purses. Just one more of my
>tomboyish aspects... always disdained women carrying purses... like,
>my mother whose purse resembled more of a carry-on bag, and contained
>everything but the kitchen sink... yet, if I was wearing a dress and
>had no pockets and wanted her to carry my wallet or hairbrush or
>whatever for me... "There's no ROOM, Jode..."
>
>Whatever. If I had to go without pockets, I would try my damndest to A.
>stuff whatever I needed in my bra or B. get someone else to carry
>whatever I needed before I would give in to carrying a purse. Usually,
>I would come up with some excuse to carry my bookbag, rather than submit
>to something so girly as carrying a purse.
>
>Lately, I have been carrying a purse. Even when I have pockets. Like,
>today... I have pockets, but I am carrying a purse. (Partly, it's 'cuz
>I've bought this nifty purse which is exactly the perfect size to carry
>my hairbrush, my wallet, my cell phone, and a ball of kitchen cotton so
>I can crochet wherever I happen to be...)
>
>And I LIKE carrying a purse, now, darnit! :-)
>
>For the first summer of my adult life, I feel like a girl. A GIRL!
>SOMETHING is working, I tell you... and it's wonderful. And it's not
>limited to mental changes... The leg hair problem is truly lessening
>and lessening... last night I realised, it's been a week since I
>shaved, and I could still wear shorts without embarrrassment. (I
>wouldn't... but I could. I shaved today...) The dark coarse hair
>halfway down my inner thighs is GONE. I silk-epiled it last ... uhhhh,
>well, a few days after May 14th, and there was hardly any there then.
>Now... it's gone. Ditto the miracle marsh (far too much to call a
>treasure trail...) under my belly button, save for one or two coarse
>strays...
>
>I don't think anyone without PCOS can realise how awesome this is. Never
>before have I been able to shave my legs and feel it's been worth the
>effort... before, I would shave, and then put lotion on my legs, and
>hate how minutes after shaving, I felt stubbly. How no matter what
>razor I used, no matter how much time and care I took, no matter how
>many billions of directions I shaved in... it did no good whatsoever.
>Now, I can shave my legs, and apply lotion, and my legs feel SMOOTH as I
>apply lotion. Two, three, four days later... the stubble is THERE, of
>course, but it is lighter, finer, doesn't give you splinters to touch. I
>reiterate... for the first time in my adult life, I feel like a GIRL.
>And ohhhh... I love it. I can't wait to visit my bf in California and
>wear GIRLY clothes... which I must confess I've been spending far too
>much money on lately... but I've got so many years of feeling hideous
>to make up for... surely I deserve this small treat...
>
>But of course... back to my ever-present dillemma... I have no idea
>what caused this. Was it... 6 months on the met? 3 months on the BCP?
>Exercise & weight loss? Last week, after spotting on the Pill...
>AGAIN... I decided, screw it! I don't care if the Pill IS causing the
>hair reduction, I am not going to be bleeding all the time... But after
>a week, of course, I changed my mind. I started a new pack today...
>because fertile or no, idea what's going on in my body or no... feeling
>like a girl is a fine trade-off for bleeding a little all the time.
>Though I am going to call my doc tomorrow and ask if there's a different
>pill I can try...
>
>In the mean time... there's HOPE! Hope for feeling normal, at least...
>medications out the wazoo or no... How I WISH I'd have learned about
>PCOS while I was still a teenager... rather than just ACCEPTING "some
>women are hairier than others..." "we can't find anything wrong with
>you..." "it's normal to have irregular periods at your age..." "your
>problems come from being bulimic..."
>
>to think of all the summers I felt so disgusting when I could have been
>prancing around in shorts and haltertops feeling like a human being...
>Ah well, better late than never. I'm only 24... I've got a few good
>years left to rejoice in feeling sexy. :-) And I'm happy about that...
>
>Hoping no one wants to smack me for being so jubilant...
>
>- Jodi
>
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