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Re: To everyone, this has been a really bad month
From: Beth (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Thu Dec 23 22:32:04 1999
Dear Jessica, I feel for you too! I was on Depo Provera & I bled for 3 solid
months. Gross!!!! I was so sick of it. ...and the mood swings were even
worse. I'm a upbeat, pretty easy going person, but on that stuff .....
WHOA----- What a B--ch!!!! I was so ill! I couldn't stand myself. And I knew
it, but couldn't control it or stop it. My poor husband, all my family
members and co-workers just put up with me until it was over because they
loved me. So you hang in there girl.
Hugs & Prayers, Beth
>From: "SUZANNE" <anonymous@obgyn.net>
>Reply-To: anonymous@obgyn.net
>To: Multiple recipients of list ENDO <anonymous@obgyn.net>
>Subject: Re: To everyone, this has been a really bad month
>Date: Thu, 23 Dec 1999 12:54:21 -0600
>
>Dear Jessica,
> I'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. Before I was
>diagnosed with Endo. I tried the Depo provera and I had the exact problem I
>bled the entire time I was on it. it was by far one month of H*ll for me
>also. I know it's hard to see the rainbow through all the fog and rain
>but
>believe me it's out there. I know what it is like to struggle with
>depression I have had my share and some days feel like my world is coming
>down around me. On the days I can hardly see through my own tears and feel
>down I turn to my computer and write a journal. I began with the dear
>journal and now I have began with dear Love as I feel better seeming as if
>someone or something dealing with love is reading my pain. I let it all out
>on my journal and then I go back and read it to myself from there I make a
>hand written list of the things that are good in my life and the ways I can
>turn the pain into happiness. It helps clear my head. As for the physical
>pain when I have it which seems often for me lately I turn inward and do
>that things to my outer self to feel comforted. I take a long hot bath with
>soft music playing a few candles lit to distract my mind from the pain and
>to more focus on the flame. We also have a hot tub that has become my
>escape. There is scented liquids you can buy at any hot tub store that have
>aloe in them that can also be used in a bathtub. I love the honeysuckle it
>takes my nose and mind into a spring day of sitting in the sun. These
>things
>seem silly and unimportant but trust me anything that can help your mind
>escape the pains even if it's just for the length of the bath it is worth
>it. Coming here and unloading also helps me. The responses as I'm sure you
>know can lift the frown from time to time.
> Never believe things are impossible. I am so connected to Endo it
>is
>not funny. I was put up for adoption as an infant and my adoptive mom
>adopted me b/c Endo destroyed her uterus and she had a hyst. just 2 months
>after begin married. B/c of that Endo. I got the worlds greatest mother. I
>had 5 beautiful boys before my Endo. took me down. I would of done anything
>to have them but if it would of happened that I didn't have one I would of
>adopted. I learned one thing this yr. and that was Blood doesn't make a
>family but love does. I met my birthfamily this summer and I got to see
>what
>it meant growing up adopted it defined things in my life that I couldn't
>see
>before. So remember if you find yourself unable to have those babies of
>your
>dreams that it's not the end b/c you can adopt a baby who will love you the
>same as your own child could.
>Hugs
>Suzanne
>>----- Original Message -----
>From: Jessica <anonymous@obgyn.net>
>To: Multiple recipients of list ENDO <anonymous@obgyn.net>
>Sent: Thursday, December 23, 1999 11:20 AM
>Subject: To everyone, this has been a really bad month
>
> > Hi everyone, sorry I haven't been on in a while. This has been one of
> > the worst months I've ever had and I am completely ready to give up on
> > everything. I have been bleeding heavy and in pain all month and I hate
> > the depo provera. Unfortunately I can't do anything about this until
> > the depo is out of my system. My doctor is calling another pain med in
> > to my pharmacy. I don't sleep and I'm extremely suicidal. My 150mg of
> > zoloft is not working and I'm switching to selexa. I feel like I'm at
> > the end of my rope and I can't live like this anymore. Final exams are
> > done thank goodness but I feel like it's a struggle to live through each
> > day. I really want kids but is it worth it to live like this for
> > another 15yrs until I'm ready to get married and have kids. I just want
> > to give up and have them take it all out. My doctor has one other idea
> > after the depo wears off. She said that she doesn't want to give me any
> > estrogen b/c it will cause the endo to grow. She said we could try to
> > insert an IUD with progesterone in it. This is my last resort b/c
> > nothing else has worked. Anyone have any ideas. Does this IUD have any
> > side effects? I can't stop crying and I just want to give up. I can't
> > handle this anymore. Thanks for listening, I'm going to try to get on
> > my computer more often now that finals are over.
> > Love, Jessica
> >
> > --
> > Jessica, musicaljb@hotmail.com
> >
>
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