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Re: I don't know how to take this anymore!?!?!?!?
From: Allan (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Mon Jul 26 11:35:43 1999
Dear Marie
My heart goes out to you, sweetie. I wish there was something I could
do to help ease your pain and suffering. I know how it is to feel so
hopeless and frustrated and fed up - that's why I'm two weeks behind in
mail. I hope you got some helpful answers and suggestions from your
doctor. I'm also home from work today, cause I couldn't stand the pain
this morning, could hardly walk or cough or anthing, so took some
percacet and went back to bed. I wish I knew the answer, really I do,
cause I'm so tired of being in pain too. You will be in my prayers,
Marie, and I hope that things are getting better for you. I hope I'll
read a positive update on you as I get caught up on my email!!!!
Luv and painfree wishes, Amy
Marie Mack wrote:
>
> Hi ladies. I'm sorry, but I just need to vent to someone who understands
> what I am going through, because no one here has a clue what it is like for
> me on a daily basis...and I just don't know how to deal with life on a daily
> basis anymore. I just turned 20 years old, and I was diagnosed with endo a
> year and a half ago. Since then I have been poked, prodded, and put through
> more gynecological tortures than I can count. I am in the military, so I
> have also had that to deal with. Military doctors are something else all
> together, trust me. I have been on Depo Lupron, BCPs, Depo Provera EVERY
> MONTH for 4 months (you're only supposed to get it once every 3 months...),
> Elavil, Prozac, Premarin...and more that I can't remember at the moment. I
> am becoming an expert on painkillers...Darvacet, Percacet, Percadan,
> Naprosyn, Mortin, Mydol, T3, Toridol...I have half a pharmacy in a box in my
> closet...(all the drugs that didn't work, which is basically the whole list
> above...) My doctors (I have seen 8 or 12 of them by now) don't know what
> to so next. Nothing has worked. For the last 3 weeks I have had unbearable
> and constant pain. I have been to work 4 days in that time, and sent home
> early 3 of those days! I am probably being discharged from the military
> soon because of this. To top off the pain, I have also been dealing with
> severe depression. I just don't know how to handle this anymore! Today I
> went to work and I tried so hard to stay for the whole day even though it
> hurt to stand/sit/move...at lunch time I finally ran out of little tasks to
> keep me occupied/distracted and I sat down and cried. (at this point the
> men i work with walked out of the office to give me some privacy) I was
> promptly sent home by one of my co-workers who happens to be one of my best
> friends. She gave me yet another lecture about "why do you try to work when
> you're hurting so bad...you should stay home and take pain meds and
> sleep..." I tried to explain to he rthat I am not sure if I can do that
> anymore. She doesn't understand how hard it is for me to sit in my room day
> after day drugged up out of my gourd staring at the tv and just crying
> because i dont know what else to do...
> I just don't know how to handle this pain anymore. I called my doctor today
> and made an appt. I am going to go over the binder fu.ll of research I have
> done with her and she is going to answer more of my questions...I am also
> goin gto ask them to do another lap. and hopefully remove some of the endo
> and with it some pain...I feel likke my life has been on pause for the last
> year and a half...I want to mov eon now...without worrying about if i am
> going to black out from the pain again today...
> I am sorry for rattling...I just don't know where else to turn...
>
> ~Marie
>
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