Re: Sick Body, No Mind
From: JANET (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Thu Jun 17 18:04:04 1999
Jody,
I want me back too. I have'nt been myself for a VERY LONG TIME either.
Thank god my husband puts up with it. I have 3 kids and am pg with #4 and am
still in chronic pain which seems like its actually gotten worse the last
couple months. Thank god i can still take something for the pain. Hope you
start to feel better. Jan B MI
P.S. The poem made me cry. I had to print it up and will put it on the
fridge for everyone to see. ITS BEAUTIFUL.
-----Original Message-----
From: Jody <anonymous@obgyn.net>
To: Multiple recipients of list ENDO <anonymous@obgyn.net>
Date: Tuesday, June 15, 1999 12:44 AM
Subject: Sick Body, No Mind
>>Date: Mon, 14 Jun 1999 02:12:27 -0400
>>To: anonymous@obgyn.net
>>From: Jody <anonymous@obgyn.net>
>>Subject: Sick Body, No Mind
>>
>>Hello, to all my Endo sisters. I have not posted anything for a long time.
>I am so very tired of trying to explain Endo to people. Now I just tell
>them I am the worlds most lazy person. There are times that I really
>believe it. I get really down on my on self. My Endo has gone untreated
>since 86. I have no insurance and I can't seem to hold down a job. My
>wonderful, supportive husband works every day except Sunday, and we still
>have trouble making ends meet. At times I feel absolutely worthless. I am
>35 and I feel like my own body is fighting against me. Besides having Endo,
>I also have Mitral Valve Prolaspe, Mitral Regugitation, Triscuspid
>Regugitation, Ebstein- Barr Virus, My doctor believes I have Lupus, and
>last summer, I contracted Lymn Disease. I even sound like a hypochondriac
>to my own self. I am just so very tired of being sick and sick of trying to
>defend myself against ignorance. I am used to handleing everyone elses
>problems except my own. All of my friends come to me with their problems,
>don't get me wrong, I like helping other people, I just wish someone would
>listen to my problems sometimes. I am sorry for such a long post. It just
>seems like everything has gone really crazy since we lost our 10 year old
>nephew to Aplastic Anemia. One week after that a friend of my husband and I
>was killed in a horrible head on collision. Everything seems like it is
>going crazy or maybe it is just me. This time when I had my period, even my
>pain pills didn't work and I take Lorcet. This time when I went to our
>family doctor, he tried to put me on xanax and I told him no! I usally am a
>strong person, I just don't know what is happening lately. I WANT ME
>BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>>Sorry again this is so long, I just really need someone to talk to that
>understands. Sometimes writing helps me.
>>This is what I wrote for my precious little nephew and wanted to share it
>with my sisters.
>>
>> ALEX
>>I fly with the angels, even death cannot hold me down.
>>Beautiful wings of gold on my shoulders abound.
>>No more pain in my body do I feel.
>>By the grace of God I now go, this is life and this is real
>>My soul is pure and on the wind I fly.
>>Set free from my pain, the Lord granted me peace by and by.
>>I can run, I can play.
>>No more do I feel my body made of clay
>>For all of my dragons, I have slay.
>>Grieve for me no more, for I am free.
>>And by Gods side I'll forever be.
>>Until we meet again at Gods pearly gates
>>I'll sit patiently with the Lord and together we'll wait.
>>
>>Hugs to all of my Endo sisters,
>>Thanks for listening,
>>Lisa Gillis
>>
>
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