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Re: Sick Body, No Mind
From: Allan (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Wed Jun 16 18:23:43 1999
your poem is very touching, Jody. My heart goes out to you and your
family. My prayers are with you, sorry you're having such a rough time.
You'll be in my thoughts.
luv. Amy
Jody E Gillis wrote:
>
> >Date: Mon, 14 Jun 1999 02:12:27 -0400
> >To: endo@obfyn.net
> >From: Jody <dirtybirds@planttel.net>
> >Subject: Sick Body, No Mind
> >
> >Hello, to all my Endo sisters. I have not posted anything for a long time.
> I am so very tired of trying to explain Endo to people. Now I just tell
> them I am the worlds most lazy person. There are times that I really
> believe it. I get really down on my self. My Endo has gone untreated since
> 86. I have no insurance and I can't seem to hold down a job. My wonderful,
> supportive husband works every day except Sunday, and we still have trouble
> making ends meet. At times I feel absolutely worthless. I am 35 and I feel
> like my own body is fighting against me. Besides having Endo, I also have
> Mitral Valve Prolaspe, Mitral Regugitation, Triscuspid Regugitation,
> Ebstein- Barr Virus, My doctor believes I have Lupus, and last summer, I
> contracted Lymn Disease. I even sound like a hypochondriac to my own self.
> I am just so very tired of being sick and sick of trying to defend myself
> against ignorance. I am used to handleing everyone elses problems except my
> own. All of my friends come to me with their problems, don't get me wrong,
> I like helping other people, I just wish someone would listen to my
> problems sometimes. I am sorry for such a long post. It just seems like
> everything has gone really crazy since we lost our 10 year old nephew to
> Aplastic Anemia. One week after that a friend of my husband and I was
> killed in a horrible head on collision. Everything seems like it is going
> crazy or maybe it is just me. This time when I had my period, even my pain
> pills didn't work and I take Lorcet. This time when I went to our family
> doctor, he tried to put me on xanax and I told him no! I usally am a strong
> person, I just don't know what is happening lately. I WANT ME
> BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
> >Sorry again this is so long, I just really need someone to talk to that
> understands. Sometimes writing helps me.
> >This is what I wrote for my precious little nephew and wanted to share it
> with my sisters.
> >
> > ALEX
> >I fly with the angels, even death cannot hold me down.
> >Beautiful wings of gold on my shoulders abound.
> >No more pain in my body do I feel.
> >By the grace of God I now go, this is life and this is real
> >My soul is pure and on the wind I fly.
> >Set free from my pain, the Lord granted me peace by and by.
> >I can run, I can play.
> >No more do I feel my body made of clay
> >For all of my dragons, I have slay.
> >Grieve for me no more, for I am free.
> >And by Gods side I'll forever be.
> >Until we meet again at Gods pearly gates
> >I'll sit patiently with the Lord and together we'll wait.
> >
> >Hugs to all of my Endo sisters,
> >Thanks for listening,
> >Lisa Gillis
> >
>
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