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Re: ????
From: allan (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Thu Apr 8 20:30:31 1999
Dear Joy
Isn't it horrible when you feel like your life is out of control? Like
nothing you do matters at least as far as your health is concerned? Wow,
you sound like me in Dec. (and weeks before and after :) !) I was
crying at work and every time I went to the doc., which really is NOT
like me either. I'm sure there's lots of other women on this forum
who've also lost it at least once also; its pretty scary eh? Maybe its
your body's way of saying WOAH! Sounds like you've always been a really
busy person who achieves alot; I bet you have very high expectations for
yourself and feel angry that you can't do it all. This holiday could be
a very beneficial thing for you psychologically -- get lots of rest,
sleep in, do things that you like whether its curling up with a book for
hours and falling asleep, or sitting out in the sun with a coffee
watching the birds, etc etc. Its a good time to just focus on you, make
YOU your top priority. I think we endo women have a tendency to be very
hard on ourselves, not take enough time for us. I don't know how good
your family and coworkers are about this whole endo thing, but maybe you
losing it will turn into a good thing, in the way of greater
understanding and compassion, you know? But even if it doesn't, you
still have to put yourself first. Please take care of you, and feel
free to email me privately anytime you want - we can compare our horror
stories :)
Wishing you a restful and less-painful day
Luv, Amy in Ontario
anonymous@obgyn.net wrote:
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> Hi ladies!
>
> Its Joy. I have been doing so badly lately. Actually for
> several months now. That's what got me on to the net in the first
> place to get some more info. on endo and that's how I found this
> forum. I am so glad for this place. Anyway, I had a breakdown at work
> yesterday. Everyone in my life has been saying that I was almost at
> the breaking point, and I kept thinking, "I'm at the breaking point!
> Not almost! I'm there!" We'll, I guess I was wrong. One of the guys I
> work with asked me to do a very simple thing yesterday, and I FLIPPED
> out! I started crying, and he said he wanted to meet with me to talk
> about what's going on. I was sobbing uncontrolably, and then I started
> hyperventalating (sp)...I couldn't breathe and couldn't make myself
> stop crying. It was terrible! I work with my parents, so the Rob (the
> guy) called them in to our meeting. They all decided for me that I
> would take a week or so off.
> Actually, I am kind of relieved. It has been very nice. But I
> feel terribly that this happened! I am not myself lately! I'm a crazy
> woman! My sister said that she thinks I'm this way because I've
> always been strong. I've always been able to handle anything that has
> come my way. At one time in my life I was working three jobs, going to
> school, and planning my wedding. She thinks that this scares me that
> now I can't even work one job without falling apart. I've never needed
> help, I've always been ok under pressure, and now I'm a basketcase! It
> does scare me! To death! I am unsure about my husband and my financial
> future, as well as a lot of other things.
> I don't know what happened yesterday, or for that matter,
> what's happening everyday! I'm sure many of you can relate. I guess I
> just needed to tell all of you what's going on with me. I have ben
> saying that i've needed a vacation, so I think I'll take advantage of
> the one that's been given to me, even if it was forcefully! =)
> Hope you're all doing ok!
>
> Lots of love and prayers to all, Joy in CA
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