Re: Here we go again?
From: andrea (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Mon Sep 10 19:47:25 2007
Hello My Friend,
I know I have talked to you about estrogen a lot, but I really do think
that (Premarin) has to do so much with your depression. When I was on
the pill, I was sooo depressed, even when there was nothing to be
depressed about! It's like I had no control over my emotions and crying
all the time, staying in bed. When I finally got that junk out of my
system and got on my progesterone, I feel like the "real me" came out
for the first time in years!
That was one symptom of estrogen dominance we discussed earlier, major
depression and feelings of lonliness. Trust me, I was there, Maggie and
I thought it would never end. I felt like it was the end of the world
at times and no one wanted to talk to me because I was always so
negative. I think when you switch to something with no estrogen in it
or get off the Premarin, you will feel like your old self again.
My personality now is what I always wanted it to be, but I always felt
like I was a hormonal emotional wreck for years. I feel like that
doctor literally saved my life by getting me off the estrogen. Just
know your sadness is being caused by what your doctor has given you, not
by You, it's not the REAL you. If you try the progesterone, it will
give you a feeling of calmness and well-being and you will have more
energy. Know this sadness you are having won't last forever.
I still get those moments during my period where I still cry some or get
easily agitated, but no where near what it used to be. Many of us have
things in common on here. I lost my mom too to liver cancer 11 years
ago when I was 25, when I was going through all this hormone stuff
still.
They say that things that don't kill us make us stronger and boy, I sure
hope so! Just know you are never alone with this. If you'd like to
e-mail me, I would be happy to give you my number if you'd like to talk
sometime. I spent an hour on the phone with someone else I met on here
about a month ago and it was really nice. We still e-mail each other.
She lives here in TX too. We started laughing because I'm like "Wow,
two people who have never met talking about bowels and periods, you just
have to laugh!" I hope that your doctor starts really listening to you
and helping you or that you can find someone who will. You are in my
prayers.....know that the future will be better for you!
--
Andrea :)
At Mon, 10 Sep 2007, mdustin wrote:
>
>Lisa,
>I was taking Zoloft at the time. I am now 24. I was told that I
>shouldn't have been taking that antidepressant after the fact (hospital)
>and since then, I have been very nervous. I was told at that time that
>my depression was situational. At that period of time, anybody would
>have been feeling down as I was. (told to me by the Phychiatrist in the
>hospital.)
>
>As far as my mother, she has been going through alot for years. She had
>breast cancer, recontructive surgery, silicone poisoning, MS, too name
>just a few in the past 7 years. I am so sorry that you lost your mom to
>Cancer. I can only empathize with you. I know that when my mom was
>diagnosed, I feared that I would loose her and after her really not
>being apart of my life through my childhood, my sisters and I moved in
>with her to take care of her. I still do. As she is handicapped now
>and for the most part bed-ridden. She was the only person in my life
>that I knew that could somehow relate to what I was going through with
>my Endo. Especially with her silicone poisoning....having no doctor
>believe her, going to doctor after doctor to find the best care. Etc.
>Now, I feel like more of a burden to her than I was before. Here I am,
>going back into being in pain and starting a period again and my one
>support (in real life), not wanting to be there anymore. It's just hit
>me hard. I can appreciate not wanting to hear such negativity all the
>time, which I usually keep to myself for the most part. So, I guess I
>am just very disappointed and sad about it.
>
>It probably sounds very selfish. And I am embarrassed about that. You
>find yourself very lonely when you have no one to lean on when you
>really need it, you know?
>
>~Maggie
>
>At Mon, 10 Sep 2007, Lisa H. wrote:
>>
>>I had a bad experience with one drug, effexor, but i have had great
>>success with Zoloft and Lexapro. They both really make me feel better,
>>and with no side effects. I see a psychatrist who manages my medication
>>(once a month). How old are you now? I am 31- so I dont know what it
>>would have been like at such a young age to take these drugs.
>>
>>I am sorry that you and your mom had that discussion.... is she having
>>something going on maybe? I lost my mom to cancer, i know how hard it is
>>to not talk to your mom when you need her......
>>
>>Feel free to email me if you want someone to talk to...
>>
>>~Lisa H.
>>
>>At Mon, 10 Sep 2007, mdustin wrote:
>>>
>>>Lisa,
>>>Thanks for replying. I know that there is nothing to be ashamed of. I
>>>was on antidepressants before. But I was under 18 years of age. It
>>>caused such an imbalance of chemicals that it sent me to the hospital.
>>>Since then, I haven't touched any type of antidepressant or mood
>>>inhancer. Too scared to. But now, I don't know if I have any other
>>>choice. I have come to terms with that. I wish I didn't have to
>>>though.
>>>
>>>At Mon, 10 Sep 2007, Lisa H. wrote:
>>>>
>>>>I think it might not be a bad idea for you to talk to your doctor about
>>>>how you are feeling. If he/she prescribes antidepressants, there is
>>>>nothing wrong with that and they can really, really help. I have been
>>>>on them for years and it has helped me in many ways- nothing to be
>>>>ashamed of.
>>>>
>>>>~Lisa H.
>>>>
>>>>At Mon, 10 Sep 2007, mdustin wrote:
>>>>>
>>>>>Well, it seems as though I am getting ready to go back through this
>>>>>again. (Endo symptoms and infections) I have been spotting (very light)
>>>>>for the past three days. It has nearly been six months without any
>>>>>bleeding, due to 3 months of Lupron, 3 months off. I am in quite a bit
>>>>>of pain. I think I'm getting an infection to top it off. I have my
>>>>>appointment with my ob/gyn on the 27th, but if I get an actual period
>>>>>before then, should I go sooner? To get on some sort of birth control or
>>>>>something? I may have to go in sooner to check to see if I have an
>>>>>infection anyhow. Also, I've been having awful anxiety/depression
>>>>>issues. It has been getting out of hand. I have been feeling very
>>>>>alone and seperated from my family/friends/husband/kids. It has been
>>>>>awful. My mother has been my rock through all of this, and now, in so
>>>>>many words, she told me that I needed to find someone else to talk to
>>>>>everyday (I call my mom once a day, everyday and talk for about 10
>>>>>mintues). And it really hurt me, so, now I haven't called her in three
>>>>>days and I feel even worse. I live far enough away from my hometown
>>>>>that I hardly see my old friends, let alone talk to them on the phone.
>>>>>(I'm sorry, I know that feeling alone isn't really a part of this forum,
>>>>>but it's causing me to have some emotional issues, which in turn, makes
>>>>>me worse physically, I think.) I really don't want to go on any pills
>>>>>for this, but I don't know what else to do.
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