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Re: Quality of Life
From: Alyson (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Wed Sep 7 07:31:48 2005
Hey Cindy,
I posted a very similar message yesterday. I understand how you
feel...like you don't know where "you" went or how to get that person
back- and in the mean time how to let yourself comprehend what is beyond
your control with out falling apart or feeling like a failure for
wanting to. I am in no position to offer advice on that right now, but
just wanted to say I understand.
Alyson
At Wed, 7 Sep 2005, Cindy wrote:
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>I guess I'm just having a bad day, but I can't take this anymore! I used
>to have a great life.. I was happy all the time. I have a wonderful
>husband and daughter who mean more to me than anything ever has. I want
>to have fun with them again. I don't want to be on the computer at 3:30
>in the morning typing on an endometriosis forum about the previous day's
>pain. I feel like my quality of life is diminishing, and I don't know
>what to do about it. I don't want to feel sorry for myself, because
>that is just plain silly. I know I'm not going to die from this, but it
>sure makes it hard to do everyday things like run and play with my
>daughter or be intimate with my husband. I am a stay-at-home-mom and
>chose that career so I could have fun and raise my kids. Now I don't
>even know if there will BE plural kids. I don't accept it that this is
>the way it is now. I want my life back! I want to sleep all night. I
>don't want to "deal with" things, I want to enjoy them! I miss having
>good sex! I miss thinking of things other than endo. I don't want to
>worry anymore that my daughter is going to inherit this from me. I
>think I need to find something that is more aggressive to fight this
>endo-beast. Right now Lupron seems to be making my mind fall apart and
>surgery hasn't helped. Can anyone just take out all my insides, wash
>them up nicely and put them back in guaranteeing I'll never have this
>pain again? Wouldn't that be great??? Thanks for listening. Love you
>gals (and guys). Cindy
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