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Re: i'm losing my mind-to julie
From: Alyson (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Tue Sep 6 16:00:57 2005
Thanks Julie,
It has definately crossed my mind that I may be depressed. As with most
people, the endo is far from the only thing that is going on in my life
and I think I've reached my saturation point. I think it would be
helpful to see someone, and I'll investigate the seratonin enhancers.
Thanks for your support.
Alyson
At Tue, 6 Sep 2005, anonymous@obgyn.net wrote:
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>Alyson,
>
>I understand that you want to be supportive to all the girls on this
>site, and we all appreciate your words of strength and encouragement.
>You also have to remember to take care of yourself. I'm glad that you
>got the chance to vent here. You need to scream and yell and kick and
>cry as much as anyone else does.
>
>It sounds also like you are suffering from depression. I work with many
>psychiatrists, psychologists, therapists, and such and believe me, I had
>to go to a psychologist to figure out what the hell was going on with
>me. (Originally a neurologist friend of mine suggested that I start
>taking an anti-depressant) Keep in mind that the pain you are having
>every day lowers the levels of seratonin in your brain. I was
>originally prescribed Lexapro because I went six months without any
>relief from pain. I had no memory; I could not enjoy anything I used
>to; I cried all the time and couldn't stop thinking about the pain. It's
>difficult to forget about pain when it's there 24/7, as you know. The
>Lexapro is a seratonin booster, essentially. It helps to put back what
>you are losing every day. It helped me to deal with the pain and the
>depression that was being caused by the pain. It did not get rid of my
>pain, but it did help me to feel more like a human being. You might
>consider asking your doctor about a seratonin enhancer for now. This
>doesn't mean that you'll have to be on it forever, but perhaps while you
>are in this contestant amount of pain and stress, it would help you to
>feel better emotionally. Of course, this is not for everyone, and if
>you don't feel comfortable taking something like this, then that is
>okay, too. I hope that this gives you another option to help you
>through in the interim.
>
>Good luck with your surgery. I hope all goes well and you feel better
>soon!
>
>Julie
>
>Alyson wrote:
>
>> I try so hard to be a supportive influence on this site. I want to
>> share my information, my experiences, and try to share the positive
>> feelings. I just finished telling a couple of girls not to get ahead of
>> themselves, take it one day at a time....and now I'm sitting here
>> thinking I am so full of poo! I just want to kick and scream and cry and
>> throw things da*n it! I've been in pain for a year and a half, had
>> surgery a year ago with no result and the pain has been horrible for
>> four months now. I hurt so badly every stinkin day. I've done the
>> heat, the diet, the accupuncture, the baths...they all work in their own
>> little way, but it seems like nothing helps anymore. I try to take my
>> Percocet sparingly (I don't want to become dependent). I find that I
>> have started pouring myself a drink or two every night. That is so
>> unlike me.
>>
>> My poor husband doesn't know what to do. He tries so hard to be
>> supportive and understanding, but what do you say to someone who is
>> doubled over every day for months on end? I lose my temper with him for
>the least little things. One minute I am a total zombie, the next I am
>livid and then I just cry and I don't even know why. My short term
> memory is out the window. I started the dryer yesterday, walked out of
>> the room and couldn't remember if I turned it on or not. I feel so
>> overwhealmed, out of control of my emotions, my body. I don't even
>> remember what it is like to be the person I used to be. Bless his heart
>> my hubby keeps telling me "Its OK honey we'll get you fixed up". I have
>> surgery scheduled next month. I'm both elated and terrified. I am
>> absolutely manic at the thought that it might not work. The last one
>> didn't. And what if it doesn't? What then??? I hate this, I hate
>> feeling sorry for myself, but I just have to get this out before I lose
>> it.
>> Thank you...
>> Alyson
>
>At Tue, 6 Sep 2005, Alyson wrote:
>>
>>I try so hard to be a supportive influence on this site. I want to
>>share my information, my experiences, and try to share the positive
>>feelings. I just finished telling a couple of girls not to get ahead of
>>themselves, take it one day at a time....and now I'm sitting here
>>thinking I am so full of poo! I just want to kick and scream and cry and
>>throw things da*n it! I've been in pain for a year and a half, had
>>surgery a year ago with no result and the pain has been horrible for
>>four months now. I hurt so badly every stinkin day. I've done the
>>heat, the diet, the accupuncture, the baths...they all work in their own
>>little way, but it seems like nothing helps anymore. I try to take my
>>Percocet sparingly (I don't want to become dependent). I find that I
>>have started pouring myself a drink or two every night. That is so
>>unlike me.
>>
>>My poor husband doesn't know what to do. He tries so hard to be
>>supportive and understanding, but what do you say to someone who is
>>doubled over every day for months on end? I lose my temper with him for
>>the least little things. One minute I am a total zombie, the next I am
>>livid and then I just cry and I don't even know why. My short term
>>memory is out the window. I started the dryer yesterday, walked out of
>>the room and couldn't remember if I turned it on or not. I feel so
>>overwhealmed, out of control of my emotions, my body. I don't even
>>remember what it is like to be the person I used to be. Bless his heart
>>my hubby keeps telling me "Its OK honey we'll get you fixed up". I have
>>surgery scheduled next month. I'm both elated and terrified. I am
>>absolutely manic at the thought that it might not work. The last one
>>didn't. And what if it doesn't? What then??? I hate this, I hate
>>feeling sorry for myself, but I just have to get this out before I lose
>>it.
>>Thank you...
>>Alyson
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