Re: ally tough day
From: Jude (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Sat Sep 18 17:10:10 2004
Dear Kim, sorry to hear you are having such a tough time. I kind of
understand what it is like. I am doing my masters in counselling and I
have had to take three months off in the middle of my internship and my
paid work to have a hysterectomy in october. I've been really up front
with everyone about my endo problems and found they have been
considerate and helpful so I can get my assignments in before surgery
and have another year of internship so I don't have to worry about
fulfilling my required hours or failing my papers.
As for observing the families and babies, well that is hard. I am going
to counselling to deal with my grief over endo and hysterectomy,
especially the loss of being able to have a family of my own. Every
cloud has a silver lining, so I am looking towards an alternative life
of lots of overseas holidays and an animal family instead of a human
family.
All the best, Jude.
At Fri, 17 Sep 2004, Kim wrote:
>
>Hi guys.... just thought I'd write for a minute to get some stuff off
>my chest. I know at least one of you had to have as bad of a day as I
>did (hope not.) I have come on here before and said how tough it has
>been lately to stay in school and put in all the insane clinical hours
>and late nights for study for this last year of nursing school.... but
>today took the cake. I have recently scheduled my hysterectomy for
>december.... not that I am looking forward to it or anything, but it is
>at least something concrete that may help with the pain (since Lupron
>and everything else has not.) So, I started my "mother /baby" rotation
>this morning and I didn't think it would bother me. I am 25 and have
>been married for about 7 years, no kids. My husband really wants kids
>but I have known for some time that it just wasn't going to happen. So
>today was a little tougher than I thought it would be; we have to spend
>alot of time in the nursery and then some time with the mothers and the
>babies in their rooms. It wasn't the actual baby part that made me
>sad.. strangely enough it was the way that the fathers were looking at
>their wives.... they were in awe and seemed so proud and loving... it
>just broke my heart to know my husband won't ever look at me that way
>(yes... I'm having a pity party right now.) To top it off we went over
>the clinical schedule and the final exam schedule and classes are going
>to go all the way into december instead of just the beginning, so now I
>have to either cancel the surgery because we start back in January and
>the only way I would have enough time to heal is if I did the surgery in
>the beginning as planned. SO.... I am trying to figure out what to do
>and will have to break down and tell my professor what is going on and
>see if she will work with me etc. I am just sick of worrying about this
>whole thing- Thanks for listening. Usually I would have whaled to my
>husband but he is at a Red Sox game and isn't too sympathetic when it
>comes to the "kids" issue because he gets so sensitive. Thanks again,
>KIM
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