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Re: Felling Lost
From: Amy (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Wed Jul 28 22:34:04 2004
Tricia,
Hi, my name is Amy. I know exactly what you are talking about....it
sucks.I had my first lap done on June 30. But before that I had been
suffering with "this unknown disease of my mind" for seven years. I was
16 when this all started and no doc believed me. I even went to a pych
doc b/c my family was told i was making it up. I wanted to die. Just
remember that we are here for you. Even if the only thing we can do is
be a shoulder to cry on, and offer up prayers for you.
At Wed, 28 Jul 2004, Lori wrote:
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>I am so sorry that you are in so much pain, I have been their also as I
>am sure most of us have with this disease. I do not know how to help
>except offer my prayers that he will bring Comfort to you & Peace if you
>continue relying on him. Sometimes prayer will lead us down a path to
>help this disease, but other times it will not heal us physically, but
>will heal us emotionally. Sometimes he sends people to help in these
>circumstances as this board I believe is helping many of us & I am
>thankful. It is so good that you are expressing how you feel because it
>helps others who are feeling the same way, but are afraid to admit it. I
>am praying for you, but also their are alot of other women reading these
>posts who are also praying for you that just do not post about it. I
>hope this can bring comfort that perhaps 1000's out their in the entire
>world right now are lifting you up! His thoughts are on you!
>God Bless
>Lori
> http://www.theendoclub.com
>
>At Wed, 28 Jul 2004, Tia wrote:
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>>Tricia,
>>
>>I know that it is hard. First I want to tell you that you have too much
>>to live for. You have 2 beautful children and a loving husband. That
>>is much more that some others have. I know it seems like the pain will
>>never end, but I really think that you can get through this. You are on
>>the right track about praying to god. Ask him for strength and to heal
>>you. Remember that god works on his time, but he is always ON TIME!
>>Unfortunately this is another life obstacle to overcome. This
>>experience will make you into a stronger person.
>>As far as sleeping try to use some type of relaxation to get your body
>>to calm down. Try using a heating pad to slight the pain a bit, taking
>>hot showers, drinking tea, having your hubby massage you (if you are not
>>to sensitive to touch). I know it is hard when you want to be intimate
>>but you are in too much pain. That is the story of my life. If you and
>>your hubby could sneak time for foreplay or have someone watch the kids
>>for the evening or weekend so you can enjoy eachother's company.
>>Try to be reminded that you are not alone. Us ladies here are going
>>through this crap too. Know that you have a beautiful family that loves
>>you. I have faith that you will pull through. Don't give up. I will
>>keep you and your family in my prayers. Feel free to e-mail me at
>>notice@hartford.edu. I know how it feels to be in pain and want to give
>>up. Try to stay encouraged. I hoped what I said helped a bit.
>>Tia
>>
>>At Wed, 28 Jul 2004, Tricia wrote:
>>>
>>>Hi all,
>>>I am so SICK of being sick all the time!!! I have been crying myself to
>>>sleep the last two nights b/c of the pain. The two doctors I have are
>>>not going to give me any thing for the pain b/c it is out of there hands
>>>now. It's been 9 months of strate pain now plus two sugerys (one lap
>>>and one like a c-secon) now on the 5th I have to go in to have my colon
>>>looked at. There was endo on it and the doctor did not remove any of it
>>>b/c she is a ob but, I asked her it there is endo on my colon or bladder
>>>will it be taken off she said yes. So now here I am with all the same
>>>pain and now I have to stop all forms of pain relef.
>>>I have to walk my son to his bus for school and I could not get out of
>>>bed to take him so he missed school today b/c of me. I fell like shit
>>>24/7 I am getting 2 hours of sleep a night, I am in to much pain to
>>>sleep. Plus now we are haveing $ problums b/c of how much I have to
>>>spend on the doctors and meds and sugerys. I fell like dieing most of
>>>the time, I would have done it long ago if I did not have my two son's
>>>and my husbend who I fell so bad for haveing them go throw all of this
>>>with me. I went to school with one girl who over dost on pain meds for
>>>haveing endo that was last year.My mom called and told me and thin I
>>>come to find I have it to.
>>>It's on my left oviery and the hole colesake area plus bladder and
>>>colon. I am so sick of this. Some time's I find myself prying to god
>>>to just end it if he can't take it away. The thing is I don't want to
>>>die I just want to play with my kids and make love with my hubby with
>>>out him saying sorry after. I don't know what to do any more. I am
>>>sorry if I depressed any one. I just wish it would all go away.
>>>
>>>--
>>> Tricia
>>>
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Amy
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