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Re: thank you all
From: Amanda (anonymous@obgyn.net)
Fri May 31 08:17:30 2002
Carol:
Just a little note of empathy. I cried for the first time the other
night..not because my life or endo is that bad...but for all of you who
are at your wits end and can't stand the suffering and knowing that
someday I will probablly get there too. It is horrible that we have to
be in this boat but at least we are all in it together. Thanks to
everyone who reads and writes and shares their stories, knowledge, and
compassion.
I really hope things improve for you Carol.
Amanda
At Wed, 29 May 2002, Carol wrote:
>
>I have sat and read so many stories that I can relate to. For so long I
>felt isolated. Like I was the only one. Im sorry we all have to deal
>with this but Im so thnkful for who ever started this. And even more so
>to the ones who are here alwaays posting thier problems questons and
>concerns. For those of you who keep aplogizing for "belly-aching", your
>not. Your sharing with the rest of use. And Making some of us feel a
>little more normal. Ive heard all of the "your not, its not, quite
>complainig. The you cant be that bad you got kids." My favorite
>one....."Here take this you'll feel better!Oh dont worry its only a
>narcotic!"
>
>I was just dxed. the doctor told me and I cried, not because I was
>upset, because I was normal again. It wasnt in my head. It was in my
>uterus!Finally I could stand up and say I AM SICK! It felt good to be
>able to name the monster that has poked proded toured me for so long!
>
>The anxitey attacks are the worst. And while every other woman out
>there complains of a period....I cant wait for mine. Each one marks the
>end of a cycle. The end of feeling like my sides are on fire or being
>ripped out. I knowe it sounds werid but i actually feel relaxed more
>just because the cramps seem to almost massage the uterus for a day or
>two. Dont get me wrong the hurt like HELL. The rest of the time I feel
>like I just gave birth. like the pressure of the head is right there.
>The thing is im not pregant nor did i just give birth.
>
>I want to sleep in any postion i want to!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not with a pillow
>shoved between my legs. I want to sleep on my belly again!!!! Damn it
>hurts to much now!! I want to go for a walk to the fridge to get my own
>*&^&^R$^$#%@ (^&%&*%
>DRINK!!!!!! I want to be the one to go shopping for dinner! I want the
>engery to cook!!!!!!!! I want to have sex with my husband again.i want
>him to just sleep in the same bed again!!! I want to hold the kids. I
>want to play with them! I want to be able to drive my @^&*&* $%^^&%&^
>%^%*%^*#%$&%^U$^Y&$^&*&^*%^#&@%$^%*&^(&*(^%$^$%*( Car!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
>I WANT A NORMAL LIFE!!!!!!!!!!
>I WANT A NORMAL LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i WANT TO DECK THE NEXT
>A&^@#@@#$%%$#@@ WHO SAYS YOUR FINE GO HOME!!!!!!!!
>
>OK i need to go take a time out for a while im really getting P%$%^ and
>havent even got started!
>
>Thanks all for listening
>carol
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